I think i'm crazy

Everyone is pregnant!
and by everyone, I mean literally every girl my our here either is pregnant, has a baby OR is pregnant with their second! It kills me. I have wanted to grow up, get married, and have a baby since I was 8 years old. I know.. I'm crazy. I don't know why but it's just always been me. My mom and Dad always thought I was so funny because of it. I mean, every little girl loves to play with baby dolls and baby sit but not stuff her shirt with pillows. I am not normal. My baby obsession has only grown worse in moving to Utah where babies flow like not other place and every cute little mormon girl is expecting. I am not a cute little expectant mormon girl. I want to be. but shhhh don't tell my husband. He tells me ALL the time, you do want a baby. I knew it. You say you don't so I don't feel rushed but you do. Danielle, we just got married! He can't wait to have little ones, and he is going to make such a wonderful Dad. But we were married in May. That would make us just celebrating 5 wonderful months of marriage

He's right!
I'm crazy.

I just can't help it. The adorable look of a pregnant belly on a pretty little frame is just so appealing to me. I don't really think about the up all nights, never sleeping again, and constant care. I take that back, I do but I don't really care! I am just so mommy status hungry. I will admit it. This isn't saying I can't wait, or even that I have a problem with waiting. Tanner is right, we just got married and once that little one comes it's never just us again. Waiting is good, and waiting is something we do want to do. I would like to try in about a year from now. Around our year and a half mark of being married. We decided on that when we got married, but I have a feeling it will change to two years. eeeek. I am not sure my lack of ability to share my opinion and need to get what I want will do well with two years. Let us pray. I also hope that as we grow together as a couple and as we listen to the Lord and what he has in store for our family that he will help us to know the correct time. By us, I mean both of us. I think that as we become better in our lives we will also be ready sooner for a family. I hope. I AM CRAZY!

I just hope that one day I will be the amazing mom I dream myself up to be. For now, I get to be great mommy to this little girl.

 Doing that alone for the last 6 days has brought me so much Joy.

So all you girls with babies, preggers, or thinking about it. Tell me how you feel? Did you feel like this too? Do you feel like this now? At least help me to feel like I'm not alone.
Love you guys!