Michigan, so happy to be here.

I'm in Michigan right now,
and I'm absolutely loving it.
one of the main reasons i'm loving it is because it has been nearly 80 everyday since i got here. i don't think i could have asked for better weather, honestly. another reason i'm so happy to be here is because, i have friends! don't get me wrong i love living out in utah and i love all the people that i have met but, everyone is so busy with their own lives as am i. not only that but nothing compares to those frienships you have had since elementary school. so needless to say when i'm there the "girl time" is far and few between. when i'm here it seems to be almost constant. it's wonderful. i love my friends. they are truly such a great support system and they have always been here for me through out the years.

i have also gottent to see my grandma which has been great.
she is not looking or feeling her best, so i ask for prayers to continue in her behalf but i think it really helps her having me here. not a day goes by since she has gotten sick that i don't feel guilty for leaving Michigan and moving to Utah. I always think about the time i lost with her, and with my other elderly relatives that have now passed away, and i never got the chance to say goodbye to most of them.

i hate that i feel guilty about that, i'm not sure if i should. it's sad seeing her this way. it feels like i don't know when this happened to her. when did she get this old? when did she get so sad. it's very hard, i wish i could go back in time a lot and just sit with her and my grandpa.

coming home is strange in general.
it feels normal to be here, i don't feel like a visitor but i do however feel like i've been asleep for three years. and when i come back it's like everyone has changed, grown, ages, and everything went on without me.
that's it... it feels like i went away and i expected everything to be the same.. but of course it didn't, life carried on without danielle dudek as it normally would. i wish it didn't. almost as if when i left time had to stop. that way when i returned it would just pick back up where it was. in 2007.. summer time.. when everything was good and life was still simple. but thats not the way of life, and without life going on the way it has i would not have learned all the valuable lessons i can now come back and share. it's fun to be grown up's. i do like it. i like that my friends no longer want to go out to the bar everyday. it's more about having intimiate dinners where we can honestly just, spend time together. talking and laughing and thinking about the times that we can't ever get back but will never forget. my life, has been a great life. i have had many fun times, and i have amazing people in my life to remind me of it all the time.
I love being home.

I do with Tanner was here with me. I miss my wonderful fiance.
I love you babe.

This weekend is easter, and of course general conference. i wont be able to watch conference this time because i honestly wouldn't know where to go!

great, i just tried to bring some light into the room by opening the blinds in our office and what happens? it comes crashing down. i stood there in shock for a moment, totally confuses as to how that just happened, then got yelled at by my dad. thats one thing that is hard about being here again. once youre used to living on your own and you come into your parents house again, and they are longing for the chance to treat you like you still live here. it's bad, really bad. i can't stand it ha ha.

anyway i had not written anything in a long time, so i decided to update my little life journal.

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!