really?

Well,
it's official... i am stressed.
i mean, apparently. we can start here on monday night..
the day went as normal, work and such planning on the small amounts of downtime but nothing special or too stressful. aside from the fact that i found out i no longer have a bed. (don't want to even talk about it)

then after work i head to the gym as per usual to work out with my tanner, about ten minutes into our not to strenuous work out i start feeling light headed and a little sick. it gets worse and worse and worse and eventually.. i am needing to lay down on the floor. we leave the gym and go buy new moon i was still feeling the same and then we got home and from then on it got worse.

i started getting intense stomach pain and felt so sick i could hardly stand it.
thinking i needed to well, throw up.. to put it lightly i spent the next couple hours trying with no luck. everyones been there so no need to explain. finally i got some relief only to find what looked like lots of blood. i was terrified. we called my parents ( i honestly didn't know what to do, i have never had anything like that happen) and they told tanner to take me to the emergency room. great. just what we need.

i told tanner to call molly, and when she got to his house and finally decided yes we should go. we went to three different insta care offices that were all of course closed. great. i'm dying in the car literally. it felt like i have swallowed a fire poker. i can't explain the fear, and pain i was in. it was so strange. it burned so bad that i could hardly breathe and of course i am panicking, tanner is scared and because of my panic attack he is getting frustrated because.... he has no idea what to do!
finally, we go to the new riverton hospital and i run inside crying my eyes out asking them for help. they probably thought i was nuts but i couldn't help it,  it hurt so so bad.

as per usual we sat in triage for about an hour before any doctor came. gotta love the ER. I often wonder what the heck they are doing that takes them so long. there was literally nobody in the emergency room, but me. and yet i didn't see a doctor for ever. they were too busy polishing the tile floor and playing solitare. grrrr.. anyway. they do the usual. shoot me full of medications through an IV, which honest to goodness felt like ice flowing through my veins. i could feel it going all the way from the start to my finger tips. it was horrible. they also gave me this stuff the numbed my throat and stomach which was also horrible. it felt like i was swallowing rocks. gross.

anyway long story short they of course couldn't figure it out!

I was told by Molly that I need to de stress. so i'm trying. it's hard though!
wedding planning... is hard.
anyway onward we go.
sorry for the lack of updates
love you all